Some people
might think this post is about learning how to do apologetics on your own, or
becoming a better Christian apologist. Unfortunately, that is not the topic of
this post. This post is concerned with being a better Christian. You see, too
many of us, on too many occasions, are doing apologetics for ourselves. What do
I mean by that? I mean that sometimes we aren’t in it for the glory of
God—we’re in it for the glory of ourselves.
“Surely not!”
you might be thinking. “Who would set out for their own glory?” But it’s true.
Of course, the vast majority of us never set out with the explicit goal of
furthering our own kingdom. But it happens, nonetheless. The issue lies mostly
in our argumentative nature. Almost by definition, we apologists like to argue.
We want to show our case, to persuade our listeners or readers that we are not
merely justified in our beliefs, but we are right! Slowly, that idea becomes
the main idea: we are right. That
idea takes root as focusing on the subject and adjective: we are right. And then a
funny thing happens. When this idea takes root, and we experience some
resistance in our intellectual pursuits, the first person plural becomes the
first person singular: I am right.
When that
happens, a kind of pride and arrogance sets in. No, I am not saying it is
arrogant to think that your view is correct. I am saying that, for a Christian
apologist, a misplaced focus on oneself is a reflection of a prideful heart.
There are some consequences to this. These consequences may also function as
tests for you. Try to ask yourself if these things apply, and if they do, why?
First, you won’t be able to
let perceived falsehoods go.
This manifests itself in a number of ways. There will be the times you are
talking with someone and they say something incorrect—you will jump in to
correct it immediately. There will be those times in an internet conversation
that you absolutely cannot let the other person have the last word, lest
someone perceive that you are wrong. You may even seek to correct people on
utterly irrelevant matters. This last one is the most telltale. Someone writes
to you that, “When America was founded in 1776, George Washington became the
president, and he was the best.” Even though the argument is about being the
best president, you snarkily interject, “But Washington didn’t become the president in 1776!” It was totally irrelevant,
but in the example, the person just couldn’t wait to correct his opponent, even
on trivial matters. Why? Because he himself had become the most important
thing; he was doing apologetics for himself, one could say.
Second, you will express
your opinion on everything.
I’m not saying that having an opinion on everything is necessarily bad (though
it can be). I’m saying that expressing every last opinion you have in every
intellectual conversation is a sign of a prideful heart. The Bible even says,
“A fool uttereth all his mind: but a wise man keepeth it in till afterwards,”
(Proverbs 29:11). The word used behind “all his mind” can be translated
“spirit,” and indeed the term likely carries this meaning. It’s not purely
intellectual: if you’re telling everyone everything you’re thinking on these
subjects, you’re probably pretty emotionally invested. In fact, likely, you’ll
be more concerned with yourself than anything else. And that is a problem. This
leads to the next one:
Third, you will take things
personally. Yes, our
opponents in apologetics often mean to insult us, and they do mean things
personally. All I mean here is that when one is doing apologetics for himself,
he will respond to these personal insults. He may be personally insulting in
return, or he may become solely concerned with proving the other person wrong.
Fourth, you will do
whatever it takes to “win.”
Suddenly, and usually without knowing when, evangelism and Gospel-defending are
dropped as an aim. In its place, the personal and prideful goal of winning the
argument becomes primary. This will involve misinterpreting an opponent’s
statements in the worst light possible, feigning incredulity at how silly they
could be, and then defeating a strawman of the principle or argument under
contention. These shameful and dishonest tactics should never be found from
Christian apologists, but they are: because of pride.
Finally, you will treat
Christian brothers and sisters badly. This last one is perhaps the most egregious of all. Too
many internet gatherings of Christian apologists, meant for encouragement and
intellectual resource, turn in to little more than petty arguments over
apologetic method, theology, creation, hermeneutics, apologist-heroes, and,
ironically, whether or not these criteria for pride apply. There is a sub-test
within this category: can you accept that you’re wrong from someone other than
yourself? What about from everyone, so long as they are actually correct? Too
often, we’re only wrong when we say we are, and at no other time! If I bring it
up, then yes, I am wrong. If you bring it up, sorry—you are wrong. If, within
our apologetic practice, we are never wrong, or never accept it from others,
then there is something off. That something is pride.
Think about your
apologetic interactions, especially online. How often have you been harsh? How
often have you taken things personally? How often have you expressed your
opinions on everything, and never let falsehoods go? How often have you done
whatever it takes to win—including treating fellow Christians with a standard
below that of John 15 and 17? We need to repent of this sin of pride. I am, and
have been many times, guilty of doing apologetics for myself. What’s the worst
that could happen if we are doing apologetics for God? Well, I suppose the
worst that could happen is that people think I’m wrong. But if I do apologetics
for God, it simply doesn’t matter! Only when I do apologetics for myself am I
wholly or mostly concerned with how I am perceived.
William Lane
Craig has written,
“I'm not
always enthusiastic when I meet a student who tells me that he wants to become
a Christian apologist. One sometimes detects that what the student really wants
is the limelight and the glory. Or there may be a spirit of argumentativeness
or arrogance about him. Or perhaps a craving for the affirmation of others to
offset a personal sense of inferiority. Of course, we are all broken people,
and none of us has motives that are wholly pure. But it is vitally important
that, as a public representative of Christ, the Christian apologist be a person
who is filled with the Holy Spirit and walking humbly with God.” (http://www.reasonablefaith.org/apologetics-ministry-advice-to-christian-apologists)
Too often I
have done the apologetic enterprise for myself; I have been guilty of all of
these things at one time or another. Probably, so have you. The question is now
this: what will we do with this? Will we stubbornly continue, or will we
change? If we change, for whom will we do apologetics? My contention is that we
should all stop doing apologetics for ourselves. Instead, we should do
apologetics for the glory and praise of God.
How do we know if we're doing apologetics for the glory of God? I, from time to time, feel like I am doing it for the affirmation for myself, so that my fellow Christian brothers and sisters will look upon me with awe. But, deep down I don't want that to be the reason, but I don't know how to escape it.
ReplyDeleteThat is a hard question my friend! I don't know that there's any formulaic answer. Notice your question pretty much has application to every area of life: How do we know we are living for the glory of God and not ourselves? I think the best we can do is to live godly in this present world in every area of our lives. In different areas there will be some differing ways of cashing it out. So, in apologetics, for example, I think we should do frequent self-evaluation. Is it wrong to get enjoyment out of apologetics, or to "take pride" (to use a colloquial term) in our work? No, it isn't. But we must constantly self-correct. In fact, Paul says we must die to ourselves "daily"! I think a good practical thing to do is to read others with the idea of learning from them. It helps keep some humility when you're not only reading for the purpose of criticism, but primarily for your own growth. I have found that the more I've learned from someone, the harder it is to be harsh toward them, and the harder it is for me to think I'm higher than I ought (well, not really *harder*, but at least harder to justify). I hope that at least helps a little. :)
DeleteThank you for the response. I should add that this post did strike a chord in me. I can easily relate to it. I don't want to be prideful. I always think of that song "Oh Lord it's hard to be humble when you're perfect in every way." It's more out of humor because my dad always says that.
DeleteI do like your advice: Have the attitude that I will learn from everyone. I think that will help immensely.
Thanks and God bless!
I have recently become very interested (and semi-feeling called) in this area. The odd thing is - I don't like debates because I often just clam up and then think of all the things I could have said later as I reflect on the encounter. As a way of easing into this I have taken to "practicing" online where I can take time to reflect on an answer that is both gentle and respectful as 1 Peter 3:15 states.
ReplyDeleteHowever, as I talk about some of these encounters with family or friends, I find myself describing a particular post and saying something like "I just couldn't let that one go". I am, at this point still very selective about the "battles" I choose but I don't want that to get out of hand.
I have grown a lot just in knowledge as I find the intellectual aspect of this discipline/application of studying the Word very compelling.
Thank you for this post. It helps as a reminder to keep things in perspective.
Greg thanks for commenting! Any way I can be an encouragement to you, please let me know! My contact info is me at randyeverist dot com. :)
DeleteI definitely understand what you're saying--it can be a fine line to walk. Some of the worst people are "Internet people," as they say, and we can quickly become one of them! I think there's a two-sided coin to apologetics: evangelistic and equipping. The equipping side is what we need to focus on in order to retain the youth: they often encounter only criticisms of Christian belief, and rarely, if ever, defenses.
I've definitely fallen prey to pride in this area. I was once flummoxed by a militant atheist colleague. I was new to apologetics so I fell for red herring after red herring. I was much more prepared the next time and I got the best of him. That's when it hit me; I enjoyed it too much for the wrong reason. It wasn't that the colleague was any closer to giving his life to Jesus, it was that I beat him. I've been concious of pride in this area ever since.
ReplyDeleteHey man, thanks for the thoughts! It's a daily struggle, and one that I fear I lose more often than I win. Blessings to you, my friend.
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